Life update

Hiya folks,
It's been months since I last wrote but this post has been a while coming.. It was just a matter of building myself up to writing it.. I still don't think I have the right words but in this situations I don't there are the "right" words.
A lot has changed in my life since I was last talking to you all on the blog.. And this is why I have been quiet the last few months.
Both my lovely, bubbly mum who was full of laughs & wisdom and my Granny L, full of wit & chat passed away at the end of September last year after loosing their battles with cancer. 
It was a shock loosing my mum, as she had been fighting it since last December & things were looking good. However, cancer has a way of springing things on you & quite rapidly last August things took a turn for the worst. 
My granny was also fighting cancer for the months previous too, but we knew she wouldn't get better so life had been a blur of hospital visits with mum & trying to make gran as comfortable as possible. 
My gran passed away after a long, hard fight on Friday 18th September. During her funeral my mum's body was rapidly closing down due to her cancer taking over & we rushed from my gran's funeral to be beside my mum's hospital bed. She lost her battle Sunday 20th September. 
Life since that has been going through the motions.. Dealing with grief & loss, the change.. The deafening silence with no mum in the house talking the ear of some poor unfortunate on the phone.. and trying to remember that for both of them they are no longer suffering or in pain so they are at peace. 
Myself & Simon are getting married in May & this day will be so bittersweet & an emotional roller coaster but I know that both my grannies & my wee mum will be there in spirit that day.
I will gradually get back to blogging bit I just needed to.. Wanted to.. Had to, put this down on a post.. Until then, love you all & talk soon.

Sarah xx

P.S. Thank you to all who have been & still continue to be rocks of support & love. I will never be able to express in words how much it meant & still means to hear that. 

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  1. Sarah, I'm so sorry. I knew your mum had passed away, but I didn't realise you'd lost your grandmother too & in such a short time. That is such a hard thing for anyone to deal with. You're a strong woman, as I'm sure were your mum & gran. Best of luck with your wedding, I'm sure It'll be a special day & they'll both be looking down on you & smiling.

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    1. Thank you for your message Yvonne. It's been a hard 6 months but knowing they are with me in spirit makes it a little easier xx thank you

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  2. Sarah I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't really know what to say. Losing someone close to you, I can't even image hoe hard it must be.
    Congratulations on your wedding, on the day try and remember how happy they both would have been for you and that they would want you to be happy.

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  3. Not sure whether to express my sorrow or happiness for you. Welcome back and best of luck to you for the future ✨ xo

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  4. So sorry for your loss Sarah. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through, you are incredibly strong to even write those words. Wishing you all the best for your wedding and I'm sure your mam and gran will be smiling down on you. X

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  5. I'm so sorry for both of your losses. I know both will be there in spirit on your big day. Congrats on your upcoming nuptials!

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  6. Wow that is a lot to have to deal on their own, but together I can't even imagine. I'm so sorry and my heart goes out to you. Thanks for sharing the link via snapchat. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Just remember we don't lose a loved one, we gain an angel. Now you have two angels! They will both be there on your magical wedding day. Congrats and enjoy the happiness too! xoxo Karen (aka blissbakery)

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  7. I'm so sorry you've experienced all this loss and suffering Sarah, losing loved ones is just horrific but I'm so glad you have hour wedding coming up and as you say they will all be there in spirit x

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